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Rest in peace my love

Journal Entry: Sat Aug 6, 2011, 12:18 PM

Today is 5 years since my lover, my best friend, my husband has passed away. I've never met anyone like him. He was kind, caring person, real gentleman... He was smart, intelligent, great person for living with... my soul mate, person you meet once in your lifetime (or never). I'm happy and proud that I was a part of his short life. And I'm very grateful to my dear friends who have helped me when I've needed help the most and who are always here when I need them. Today my kids and I live normal life as anyone else :nod:

I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

Celine Dion, Because you loved me

I've recently lost a friend, actually his friendship. Without any explanation. I still don't know what happened and why he started to avoid me and I probably won't find out ever. Alexander Graham Bell once told "When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us". It's so true, instead of looking upon open doors, I'm still looking at that closed door hoping that somehow it will open once in the future. But I know it won't happen. I survived much worse things in my life. So, open doors, here I come.

At the end, I would like to thank you all who participated in my poll. Thank you so much for your answers. I've learned a lot. I realized that love is not an option even in RL, not to mention in virtual life. But I'm happy to see how many people found their soul mates in that way. Good luck to you all and I wish you, once again, many love and happiness in your lives.


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CosmoCutie Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2015
I'm so sorry for your loss. My condolences to you. :rose:
Space-Overload Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2015  Student Digital Artist
♥Wow...I have mixed feelings about this journal.
You see, I'm not very comfortable talking about fact, it frightens me.
But the way you talk so calmly about it..if things get easier over time?
My best friend- no sister, is in the hospital as I'm writing this. ((I'd rather not discus her illness further.)
And was talking with her mother recently, apparently, the doctors are not sure if she's going to
survive or not and.. I'm scared.
But like I said before, you talk so calmly about your husbands I just wanted to ask,
does it get easier to deal with as time goes on? 
You don't have to respond to this if you do not wish to, I was just really moved by this journal.♥

(( I apologize for making this comment more about myself then anything...And sorry for commenting 
on this later then you posted it, I just barely saw this..^ ^;; ))
Binkyt11 Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2015  Hobbyist Artist
I'm sorry for your loss. :hug:
IggyVillageKoopa Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2015
This message has touched me. :hug: I know it's sad...
Sedma Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2015
Thank you, you're very kind :hug:
TheRafflesia Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Deepest condolences. :(
KuroJAG Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2013
Its all okay :iconhugplz:. I know all the feels. I know we don't know each other but If you ever need someone to talk to I'm here. Just send a note.
hummingbird88 Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2013
:tears: My sweet hearted friend Renata,
I know just how you feel since i have had so much death in all my family & very long time friends.
My daddy whom was a very famous boxer was murdered by his new wife's brothers. She thought that she was going to be willed everything he had but he never told her i was the one that he willed everything to me only. My daddy was the most amazing amazing man & loved me so much, in fact he put a tattoo on his arm with my first name on it because i do not have a midddle name. His brother my uncle was also a boxer & i'm so pleased he is still alive.
I know how much it hurts way down deep in your heart, soul & your being. You have my full support & i'm here for you if you want to note me or send me an email if you want to do that. I love & adore all the human race & do love helping out.
Your friend,
Ms. P. :heart:
Eldesttemplar Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2012  Student General Artist
im really sorry for you,i just lost my father recently,i know what you're going through :hug:
bmrpeal Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2011
Even with the sadness of lost a person that is so important to you, it's a very good thing to know that you, at least, you have met your soul mate. I'm still searching for it, and i hope i'll find it before i dead, because is sad to loose it, but more sad is to never meet your soul mate.

Beautiful words what you have written, rest in peace.
Sagojyousartpage Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Very beautifully written :hug: Let him rest in peace...
Mauser7 Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
That was a beautiful journal. I didn't realize your husband had passed on. I learned something new about you today. *hug*
Magic-of-Darkness Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2011  Student Photographer
So lovely touched me.. Rest in peace.
notofthisearth Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2011
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away :rose:

sesam-is-open Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2011
I send you my love and a very special hug.:icondarkmarek:
You have a wonderful heart and it's a honour to know you, my dear.:tighthug:
OkamiJake Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2011  Student General Artist
Lovely post.
Remember, he will live on in your heart and in your children.

I wish you all luck and love you can possibly get.
d37nu1l Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2011
Hollyfrost28 Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2011
I could never word anything better myself. This journal is very moving. I hope you find your "open door."
AndrewZissou Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2011  Professional Photographer
enko97 Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
Commandox20 Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2011
Very lovely post.

Do you really feel that way about love, though. That's very disheartening. Of course anything of that nature right now is very disheartening to me. A few months ago there's no way I would have agreed with you.
NightSkyPorcelaine Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2011
:) its so nice to remenber people we cared about and passed away with a smile...
at the beggining aint easy... My dad passed away on January of this year and I'm still strugling not to cry when I think of him. Your journal was touching because its somehow inspiring.

I'm glad you had the strenght to cary on your life and being an sucessfull deviant and person, I'm glad that your children have you to support them :) (thank God I still have my mother too :))
Life is precious and sometimes i think its never too much to say how much you love someone... You never know when... that person you care about is... gone... So its better to show every day you care, because someday you will have no regrets and the good memories will prevail.

Take care of yourself :)
j-vdb Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2011
jasminhalkic Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2011  Professional Interface Designer
Prekrasno! :huggle:
PatrickL Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2011
he will watch over you!
horseybella1197 Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2011
Very well written. Gone, but never forgotten :heart:
Gep65 Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2011  Student Digital Artist
The world takes us the best...
and give us the rest...
but though we try to live on...
to carry the burden of those who're gone...

by Gep65

Sedma I wish all the good things of this world though I know that this world took the best from you and nothing can ever replace your husband..but look on the bright side of've your kids...give them all the love you and he would've give them...:O

And to the thing with your's not okey...but I see that I'm not the only one who lost a friendship without a's just sad...but we can't change it either...:no:
wayner8088 Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You made me cry. God bless you :rose:
writebynight Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2011
:cuddle: I'm sorry. I don't really know how to respond to a post so beautiful, so special. I'm sure he will live in your heart always.

"The ones that love us never really leave us."
You will be in my heart today.
LItaliano-Vero Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2011
I meant to say never fade. A little too emotional while typing.
LItaliano-Vero Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2011
May the memories of the time you had together fade, and hoping that sharing those moments with your children will keep him alive always, in your hearts. Peace and Love.
ShaolinAssassin Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2011  Hobbyist Interface Designer
What can I say after such beautiful words?
It's a very nice and simple tribute to your husband. I really can't speak for him - and I and no one would dare - but I'm sure he would like better this day to be a day for remembering who he was - a father, a husband, and a great person as you told me - than a day for crying his loss. You have all my sympathy and friendship dear Sedma :hug:
C-Williams Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
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